Ring me Out

Yesterdays Arrival: Oct 3, 2012

I arrived in Calgary today -in fact just now as I stopped for a bite to eat while waiting for my land lady to get home and let me in; so I am sitting at a Smitty’s with my car still packed with my things.  This is just another transition before getting to Spain although I am realizing more and more that this part of the journey is just as significant as the destination and it will be yet another opportunity to be used by my God.

I truly loved the drive. I had decided to stop halfway in Swift Current for the night, and today was the final stretch.

It was an easy stretch of highway that I almost didn’t want to end…It was the greatest worship time I have had in years, just hours of singing, praying, audio bible and sermons, with more and more singing and more and more praying and listening and soaking in the presence of my God. 

I praised the Lord for the transition this time, looking out to the vast prairies that went on for miles. It was the pivotal transition place, the sentiment of between homes, between the places that I called home, the cities that contain the scenery but even more importantly they contain some of the people most dear to my heart that makes it home, and even in my deepest emotional attachment to them that weighs my heart in saying goodbye…still….my heart was full.  God is enough, he whispers in my ears…Jesus is my first love…He reminds me as I sense the grip of His hand leading me ahead…The Holy Spirit is alive and well in me and there is no where that I can go to escape the presence of the Lord, He will be with me.

I imagined my heart as a sponge; filled and sopping wet, heavy and dripping behind the car as I drove. I prayed, “LORD, do not ring me out yet! “ Finally I sense you so close, you fill me up, you are my everything, do not let this feeling pass me by. My heart was so full I was consumed; it felt like new love, like the stirring sensation in my spirit. I was whole in Him, being in the presence of the one who has consumed my thoughts, stolen my heart and given me unwavering and immeasurable love beyond all comprehension. I prayed again, “Lord please do not yet ring me out, I need you.” And I imagined that this is actually what is supposed to happen...I imagined getting to Calgary and being full and satisfied…and unable to soak anymore from what waits for me in Calgary. He needed to ring me out… for life, and for people. Even ring me out over people that He would drip through me. And as I am rang out I draw near him again, and He fills me, and again he rings me out. I thought about other things in my life I could deceive myself to think it was filling me up, but it was just a deception, and the only thing that actually saturates and satisfies us is Him. Then I realized, He will have to ring me out but He will not leave me dry, He is living water and will satisfy me with everything I need to be fulfilled.

This journey has certainly had a great number of mixed emotions and being the sensitive girl that I am; I am full of them.

For a long while I was sensing the great losses and mixed emotions of saying goodbye and transition. All the while I was still feeling greatly convicted to the calling of ministry in Spain and for the burden of the souls that do not yet know my Jesus. And in the midst of that all I still had measures of great excitement for what the Lord is calling me to…

What does He want with me in Spain...in Calgary?

What does He have in mind for me?

Even now the thought tickles me, as I know His great love for me and His great love to use me-His Bride- to accomplish things far too big for me to glorify Him.

Praising my Maker, the author and creator of life, and the writer of my life story…praising Him for the journey…it’s all about the Journey.

Lord, wherever you go, I will follow you.

Kim Walker- I Surrender